insanity

why i have to take things seriously if i can just let it go and be me,myself,and go with the flow as usual?
i should just be myself,the old me,who don't seem to care about everything that came around me and made a blurred face,laughed when people said something serious and acted like nothing happen.

i did that..but some people said i should change
should i or shouldn't i?
i decided.i changed.

and now,when i've changed,i felt weird.
i felt i've grown up too fast.i felt old.i felt matured.
i feel like i'm losing my sanity in the middle of these weird weird feelings.

so,now..i have no idea where i'm heading to.
i can't handle this situation.
i can't get it out of my mind.
i'm losing control.
i'm out of the track.
i'm about to make the same mistake..but please,don't let me...

'DEAR GOD,YA ALLAH..I'M BEGGING YOU.FORGIVE ME..I'M SEEKING FOR HELP ONLY YOU CAN OFFER.
AMIN..'