may I?

haiiii!!nama saya nurhanisah binti baidullah.saya pelajar tahun satu, semester satu ijazah sarjana muda kejuruteraan awam..


sound so gempak kan?hakikatnya,miserable kot!..thinking that i have another 4 years to spend at the campus,facing numbers,calculations,cements,soil,kayu kayan and whatsoever lagi lah,i feel down.and it makes me wonder why i choose this civil engineering course in the first place.let me take you to the journey of where i'm standing.

it started back when i was in form 5.i started to go to a tuition center with a bunch of my friends.i took physics and chemistry subjects.i met mr yeoh.he taught me physics.he made me think and feel that physics is an easy subject.i really scored on my physics paper.at last,i got an A1 for my physics in spm.i still remembered,my physics' teacher aka my classroom's teacher, ms see handed me the examination's slip and said 'wahhh!!fizik awak A la.bagus bagus!!'. and i was like monologue to myself 'jangan pandang saya sebelah mata la cikgu..'hee.she did though!well,that was what i thought...heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

then,pergi isi borang UPU.on that time,i was in setarbak.confused to choose the course.and that was the time i thought to myself

physics=A=engineering!!!

what kind of engineering?chemistry?mechanical?electrical? = SUSAH KOT!

civil? = SENANG KOT........hehe

haaaa...........macam tu lah pemikiran saya pada waktu itu. click click click walla!!! dah send permohonan ipta!first choice memang lah diploma in civil engineering di uitm...memang cita-cita nak masuk uitm.bajet dapat uitm shah alam.dekat dengan rumah.tak tau la pulak yang uitm shah alam tu hanya untuk degree je...foundation??yang ni,time isi borang upu,tak nampak plak kewujudan foundation2 ni.dah isi borang,dah lepas tarikh tutup barulah sedar benda-benda yang sebelum ni tak sedar.YES,I AM NOT ALERT.i was (and still) not aware of this kind of thing.

then,dapat lah surat tawaran pergi uitm arau.mula-mula,sumpah benci arau.tiba-tiba terkejut kena duduk dalam satu tempat yang asing.kekurangan dari segi entertainment.jauh dari family.tapi bila dah lama-lama,jumpa kawan-kawan,jadi best plak.tapi dari segi pelajaran,i must admit,it was easy at first but things get harder and harder

now,because of PENERAPAN,i go back to part 1, semester 1 repeating most of the subjects i have learn when i was in diploma.sadly,i will never gonna get the diploma scroll.the past three semesters i got good results and now,it all become nothing..meaningless.like 'who cares of what you have achieved on your diploma??no one cares!' pathetic gila! and i have to wait for at least 4 years to graduate. 4 YEARS! mampukah nak dapat dean's list every semester? mampukah? am i? arghh!!!

i do feel a bit distracted by the situation. even though,tak ada orang pun paksa untuk dapat DL tu.but i know,parents are hoping. me myself am hoping.desperately...it is not the matter of passing-graduate-work. it is strive for DL-graduate-success.am i taking myself too high?i can't turn back at this point.i am doubting myself but i need to through it all.

pray harder.i believe He is listening.amin =')