my hijab

the more i know,the more i fear..as a muslim,it would be a lie if i said i know nothing about hijab and covering the aurat.when i was younger,i thought when you wear the tudung,you have already covered the aurat.no matter if you weaing a jeans or baby t-shirts..LOL..how foolish i was back then huh..lepas tu,bila dah pergi sekolah,ustazah ajar,baca buku ilmiah (perghhhh...),then i discovered about the real meaning of aurat and ways to cover them.well,basically,the muslimah need to cover everything (every parts of the body) except for the face and hands.like wearing the telekung lah senang cerita kan..

'nisah,kalau dah tahu kena tutup aurat,kenapa tak buat?' SOALAN PANASSSSSSSS punyeeeeeeeeee...

(okay..peluh-peluh ketiak nak jawab wohhh...)

the answer is simple.i am just not ready.haha.but seriously, i am not ready.mungkin untuk sesetengah orang,mereka fikir 'ahhhhhhh.alasan je tu.'..YES,IT IS AN EXCUSE.BUT A REASONABLE EXCUSE, i suppose.

benda macam ni,kena fikir panjang.niat kena betul.it's not just about covering the aurat.i don't want to wear tudung because of TREND.i don't want to wear hijab because SOMEBODY TOLD ME I LOOK NICE ON IT.i don't want to wear tudung and act as if i don't and tell people 'HEY,THIS IS WHO I AM!I AM WEARING TUDUNG BUT IT DOESN'T MEAN THAT I CAN'T LAUGH OUT LOUD OR GO FOR A DATE WITH MY BF!'.i don't want to wear TUDUNG with the SKINNY JEANS AND HANGING T-SHIRT.i don't want to WEAR HIJAB and TAKE IT OFF whenever i feel like doing so..

NO!!!!!!

aku tak nak macam tu.aku nak berubah dengan cara yang betul.biar datang dari hati.lebih bermakna..hidayah terus dari yang atas...=) wearing a hijab means that you are taking with you the image of Islam.the pureness of the religion.a big responsibility.the responsibility that i don't think i can handle it right now.

'dah tu,sampai bila nak macam ni?takkan nak tunggu dah tua baru nak bertaubat?itu pun kalau sempat.kalau umur tak panjang?'

PANASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS GILA!

ajal,maut semua di tangan tuhan.pray for me.insyaAllah one day,i will wear the hijab..with the right intention.i want to wear hijab because one reason.because of Allah..insyaAllah...

ps:i am talking about me.takde kena mengena dengan orang lain.and yes,please pray for me.ingat aku dalam doa mu,kawan..=) and i don't know why whenever i talking about hijab,i feel so stupid of creating excuses not to wearing it..agagagaga.i do look stupid didn't i?........